baik baik baik..
Subhanallah.. :’(..
berbulan-bulan yang lepas..
Kak, kin nak cari orang yang boleh ajar kin baca Quran. Kin tak pandai tajwid, teruk. Kin nak belajar balik semua sekali.. tapi..
Tapi apa kin?
Kin tak tahu nak minta tolong siapa.. Kak kenal siapa2?
Insya Allah nanti kita carikan.
:( teruk sgt rasa diri sendiri sebab tak mampu carikan untuk adik kesayangan sendiri. Astaghfirulllah.. Ampunkan diri ku yang lemah lagi daif ini.. :(
seminggu yang lepas..
Kak, kin betul2 nak belajar tajwid, kin nak baca Al Quran.. Kak kalau jumpe yang kak suggest hari tu, please bagitau dia kin nak belajar dengan dia.
Insya Allah kin..
Kuasa Allah, tak terjumpa langsung orang yang dicari, diri diamkan.
Kuasa Allah juga,
beberapa minit lepas..
Kak, kin jumpa sorang ni, nama dia ______, kin tanya dia boleh tak tolong kin ajar tajwid and baca Al-Quran balik.. lepas tu dia cakap, boleh.. malam ni, lepas isya’, dia suruh kin turun surau. Kin sembahyang isya’ kat sana. Lepas tu…
senyum dan senyum dan sedih dan sedih akan diri sendiri..
Lepas tu, dia suruh kin join kelab PPI dekat surau. Kin cakap lah, kin tak layak nak join kelab tu. Kin jahat.. banyak dosa kin..
Kin.. tak baik cakap macam tu.. Kin pergi ya. Insya Allah okay je..
Kin pun berlalu pergi, seusai isya’, kelibat kin terlihat.
KAKKK.. kin tak layak.. kin tak layak.. Kin tengok semua pakai tudung labuh labuh.. Kin tak layak. Merintih-rintih..
Bersambung…. (tanpa janji)
Astaghfirullah, I found myself being far far away from Allah lately, I found myself do not appreciate all the goodness around me lately, I found myself watching tentang dhia during maghrib lately..
O My Creator, keep me, my family, friends,the person who’s reading this on the right track, keep us on the right track, keep us on the right track..
I’m thinking of a long hiatus.. The video project… I’m sorry. I’ve nothing to promise.
Please keep me in all your doa(s) for my iman to get a fresh and healthy start again.. Amin and countless thank you to all of you.. Insya Allah.
The timing of deciding to be on a long hiatus are just perfect, million homeworks coming right up soon.
Wassalam..
*kin = bukan adik sebenar = bukan nama sebenar
5 comments:
awk..sy pnh ada perasaan cmni juga. ive once decided to change, but then i got bored..n went back to the old me.
commitment to simple things like wearing socks to cover my feet seems so hard to do..
ive seen friends wearing socks, handsocks, loose blouse and tudung labuh..but then suddenly they just decided to quit and went back wearing short sleeve and short tudung..
reading ur blog makes me grounded and remind me of what i once wished i would be.
istiqamah is the key, and i dont have it yet.u seem like such a wonderful girl and i hope u could continue writing. u never knew that some strangers would bumped into ur blog and muhasabah diri.
all the best dear.
:( ... i just could not find the sweetness anymore. That is why.. :(..
Insya Allah i will back, i just not sure when. I'm hoping you are doing way better than me! Please be tough! Dont follow my steps... :( Love youu walau siapa pun diri awak sebenarnya, anonymous. TQVM!
Sy pun nak belajar tajwid dengan lebih baik :(
Always a good one from syafiqah. May happiness be with you :)
thanks for the sharing and may Allah bless us all :')
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